just wanted to cry and you can't? Ever feel like you just don't remember how? Lately I think I just can't anymore. I have been let down a number of times lately, just loving/hating my life, being happy with what I have/wanting more out of myself but you would think at least once I something would come out of me. At least a glassy eye; nothing. I know I am incredibly guarded at all times and I am the one people honestly love to be around because I make you feel good about yourself, but I am starting to think that being that person really does take its toll on me personally. I don't know why. Maybe it is just the giving; what is really left for me. Now I am not saying it is anyone's fault but my own. In the phrasing of Vincent from last season's Project Runway, " I don't know but it gets me off". I do like to make people feel good. Maybe it is I am just saturated with what people say is Real NY. NYC is so real. NYC is about as real as Los Ang...
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The USA trip is alsomst settled! Going To California by the end of august and some friends are joining me there.
First I am going to attend my cousins wedding up at napa valley and then I am joining my friends and renting a car. The plan was that I was going alone and now it seems that since we probably will be 4 people most of the trip, it will be cheaper for me... then by the 12 of september I am going to New York. Cant wait..
how about thet "deal" of going to a play at broadway while I am there? or just a cup of coffee... to say hello?
Take care!
Morten
good to be back in NY,sorry to leave you in riverview,lol...had to move on,and believe me not to a better offer,,see ya aroun' and if not check ya aroun'
josh